I haven’t given news in a while because it’s been the same old same old for me. Still no news, running out of exams to do, and still just as disabled as ever lol

But I finally sent my disability claim today. I had a weird past few weeks, where I had pretty good days (above the usual ‘good’ threshold for me) followed by pretty terrible days. So I said to myself the next time I’m in a bad period, I’m going to send my claim.

And that was today so yeah, claim sent lol. I had the form filled up already from a month ago because I know this day would come. I know it’s a friday afternoon and I probably won’t have an answer for a few weeks but I’m still anxious lol.

I was also called for some civil service thing in september and sent them a doctor’s note that I could not attend, but they probably thought I’ve done it too much and want me to report at 7:30 AM on the first day to go to a medical exam 😐 like my doctor could tell you everything you need to know just need to ask her lol.

I assume the exam is to determine if I’m fit for service and if I should be completely exempted from it. It’s going to be “their” doctor but tbh they’ll probably send me to the hospital or a normal doctor, that is, I don’t think they have the money to employ their own doctors full-time lol. So it’ll be more impartial hopefully.

I dread even just showing up because going anywhere is difficult for me but this will probably be beneficial and they’ll leave me alone after that.

If they want me to show up for the full service I’ll say sure, if you want me to puke in the food the whole time. I can’t even cook for myself most days much less 40 people lol. I’ll also ask my drs office for basically the entire file so I can show that while there is no diagnosis, there is a history of chronic symptoms.