When I talk to myself, sometimes I call myself my dead name, or my gender I don’t associate myself with. I am self-aware enough to know I’ve associated myself as male and [name] for thirty-seven years, but it annoys me I haven’t made that connection in my brain somewhere that yes, I’m a girl, my name is Eshe. I feel it in my soul, so why is my brain being such an ass?
Very normal. I’ve been using they/them for more than a year. I don’t normally misgender myself anymore, but I’ve been around family for the past week and they constantly misgender me. I’ve found that I’ve been misgendering myself more too because of it.