I rarely see the sun or hangout with other humans.

It is hard. It has been like this since 2018

I just cried because I saw this animated video of how nature, it looked amazing, I missed my childhood home.

You see, I live in an apartment.

And I am in middle east and near the coast the and apparently the AC unit is not dehumidifying and I can’t change it since it came with the apartment.

I have to get a dehumidifier, it will cost a lot, and I promised my father that since I failed life I will just spend on necessities.

That why I didn’t go to doctors, and get a dehumidifier, phone etc. For so long.

Per the system it took me 2 years to get a replacement for a microwave. It was hard.

Now, I am so agitated, I can’t sleep with humidity level 60 to 70%

I miss being out. I just miss it.

It seems, I am alone in this.

No other person with autism on reddit or lemmy is in a similar situation.

I envy those with high functioning autism who have no mental retardation. And bizarrely those who habe the sever kind,.they are taken care of.

Sorry, I am really down, I feel like I can’t be myself, and being alone is hard

  • mountainRadish@lemmy.worldOP
    11·
    il y a 7 jours

    (I will be the ignorant asshole for those who want to interpret my comment like that.)

    I intrupted your comment? Which comment?! How!? Not trolling I swear, I read it many times! I never replied to any of your comments… I think

    We are in different worlds comrade. I am sitting in a 65 -70% humidity… let me look at my fingers ✋️🤚 I am 30% to be fully wet… I can’t sleep, the last thing on my mind is some exercise. Or some hobby.

    I had to Google calisthenics.

    I would be happy to sit outside at 5 pm at that golden time. I miss the outside.

    Therapy stuff is not really what I need, a friend to take me outside would be a better therapy.

    Or maybe dehumidifier, I have been cranky and depressed because of it.

    Now I have to buy it and I have to cut on other shit.

    I tell you comrade, being at 70% make deaths taste sweet specially when you are stressed about being illegally deported because of a stupid war.

    The plan is to end it if I got deported, But life is swee, that I know. I got so sick.I use crutches.

    Can’t open a bag of chips without pain. I am so weak that standing gets me tired.

    Skin agitated, can’t sleep for days. I really wanted death, I was “I am tired both” I said it with a lisp.

    I went over the ledge, suddenly afraid and life is tasting so sweet. I even forgot all the random joint pain caused by rheumatism.

    Damn it.

    if I got deported, where will I go!?

    I really wanna chocolate mousse cake

    • sit@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
      3·
      il y a 7 jours

      Use water to cool down and move, don’t try to depend on other people. If you know somebody you can ask them. But don’t make it a requirement if they say no.

      It’s your life!

      (You didn’t interrupt me, I don’t know what you are writing about.)

      • mountainRadish@lemmy.worldOP
        11·
        il y a 7 jours

        Dude, you said I intrupted your comment or something. Who cares, anywhooos

        My problem is not cooling, it is humidity.

        I think I would die without cooling. I heard it gonna reach 52C soon.

        But taking shower does help with humidity and being in touch with lovely people like you.

        I am gonna gonna go and eat shreks’ penis, in other words cucumber… CUCUMBER RICK* 🥒

        *that’s a reference to a show called Rick and Morty.

        • content_educator_94@thelemmy.club
          2·
          il y a 4 jours

          He meant “interpret” which is very similarly spelled

          He meant uh how you say… your perspective and personal understanding, your interpretation, he wasn’t saying you cut him off, (“to interrupt”)

          English sucks and is confusing

          (Also I live in Florida in the US and I know that humidity can make life almost unlivable, I’m sorry it’s so dang humid for you right now in your apartment!)