Biological warfare

So like Russia and Assad?

I hopped mainly among a few. Then it was Debian for a long time. Then hopped again for no particular reason. My Mint kernel panicked once a few weeks ago, so I might hop again.

Of course. Maybe they gave the dangerous toy to the buffoon they would bet was stupid enough to use it.

The world has become numb enough that it will only ever condemn atrocities or at best shake a fist at them. Trump’s horde has proved that you can get away with anything as long as you brazenly ignore common sense and basic human decency.

Know any good restaurants?

The Good Place

I think that’s changing too about me.

Lately I’ve been getting marketing calls with recorded messages.

And it’s absurd to even wish I didn’t need to have a phone.

I wanna live there fully and permanently. But I have to keep reaching out for work.

Is the picture (and possibly the quote) from the movie Insomnia?

I should rewatch Patch Adams very soon.

A few years ago, I was with a few friends when we saw a cat with similar color pattern as the cutie here. I said look how beautiful it is, and they looked at me weird. I had forgotten about that.

I’ve been going to therapy. I think I’m about to stop though. It’s not really doing much good because I’m too stuck in my head. I don’t like the options I seem to have in life.

I think I’m close to submitting to an “it’s too late to do anything meaningful” conclusion.

Therapy helped me put things in a more logical perspective, but it’s not going to help with some “fundamental” things that are necessary to fix things even within logic, let alone what I now know that I ideally want.

I can’t express how much I appreciate you taking the time to write that.

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It is burnout (too). I’ve been experiencing a lot of instability which got worse in the past few years. Trauma as well.

One or two things that could have gone okay and make most things bearable, if not fixable, took terrible turns and kinda broke me mentally.

I blame only myself though, ultimately, because a little foresight and mental strength could have spared me a lot of trouble.

At what point will “national security” of a nation stop being a good excuse for a few narcissists to do whatever they want to the world in the name of only a part of it?

Yes. I do have to go back to reading stoics. There was a time I myself recommended it to others. Thank you. I wish it was the imposter syndrome.

Some things are supposed to fall on me. I should be able to handle some things as a person. Yet I feel like a burden on everyone and everything. This is not about my job. Everything else is shit. And I’m worried it’s affecting my job a little.

Actually it’s the best environment I’ve been in. It’s not directly about work. I am my problem.

What if I’m not trans (most probably not; and nothing could be done about it anyway)? Can I join for related/other reasons as an ally?