catter [comrade/them, she/her]

Thrifting rocks though. My favorite things have been thrifted :)

So sorry to hear this 🫂 Losing an animal friend is really hard

Also journaled for the first time in a long time. Childhood me knew what was up before the “loving” religious people around me flooded her with transphobic lies. Finally, clarity.

We are so back today! Tried out a chosen name in my support group and am feeling really good trying clothes on 🥰 It’s scary choosing to pursue my identity, but that recognition and acknowledgment of my inner self seeps into other areas of my life. It’s empowering.

Got dolled up today, but not getting the same euphoria as I did last time 😮‍💨 Not being dysphoric is still a plus, though. Yesterday I tried presenting masc and could not look at myself in the mirror, so there goes that, I guess 😬

I think winter time might rule. I naturally come off as pretty androgynous, and with layers + mask + earrings I have had people treat me veeeerrrrry differently at the store. Until I talk 😮‍💨 Then they honestly seem to get kind of angry with me? I don’t have vocal dysphoria, but I’ll probably voice train anyway to keep myself safe.

It seems like we are in the same boat. I’m so sorry you’re going through this 💜

Thank you so much for sharing 💜 the last time I felt truly happy consistently was before puberty, so I would say depression has followed me for most of my life. I’m glad that transitioning has helped you so much! Maybe it could help me too.

It is insightful, also, that you want to be masculine, whereas I cannot stand masculinity for myself. It’s easy for me to think that no one could want to be a man / masc, but actually it’s just my own desire to be feminine. Not a very cis thought haha. Thank you again, this was helpful :)

I’ve come to loathe being called brave in all this as well. I don’t want to be brave or courageous or thick skinned, I just want to have a happy life where I feel normal 😮‍💨

The itch of ingrown hairs makes me act irrationally.

I feel this in my soul. I am a menace with tweezers.

Best wishes for your next year :)

Which flavor of arch and which desktop environment? I’ve been loving Cachy with KDE Plasma, as a former Windows user 🙂 It’s everything I liked about Windows minus all the extremely agitating minutia lol

Feeling like a sickly victorian child this week, just in time to have a socially acceptable reason to skip New Years get-togethers. In other news, I really gotta make some friends that I’m actually excited to celebrate stuff with lol

This makes so much sense in retrospect. It wasn’t until the last ten years my (admittedly very sensitive) eyes started bothering me while using a computer. I’m in dark mode, yellowed display, brightness all the way down, and it’s like staring into the sun for me.

It is so validating hearing someone else have similar experiences 💜 Thank you!!!

Weirdly it put me in a better mood because I feel I’m growing more certain of my identity. Thanks to everyone here who has been helping me navigate this :)

This is especially helpful for me since I also think I’m autistic. I’ve always masked to avoid conflict, and sometimes that reflex makes me unsure about whether the mask is the real me. But the euphoria is unmistakable 🙂

Came out to my partner as gender questioning on Christmas evening. It did not go very well, but it could have been worse. Sometimes when there’s conflict, I question whether I actually believe what I’m saying. I’m proud that I stood firm this time that this is something necessary and important to me.