Elvtárs ☭

I haven’t been given one.

I write them in manually of course, if it’s justified. 👍🏻

Of course, my job IS to handle the machine and overview the shifts.

Just an update from my side: yesterday at the meeting they held a little “inauguration ceremony” for me at the party meeting. The party representative from the Capital had given me my little red membership book as well as gifted me a book from our president and a brand new party pin. Our goal this year is to get in the EU parliament to voice the program of people’s Europe together with all major European communist parties. Thank y’all for the crossed fingers, the whole event went great! I hope you don’t mind me talking about my experiences here.

My application to be a member of the party has been accepted! This Sunday, I’ll be attending my first ever meeting! Such a joyous occasion.

Éljen a munkáspárt! 🚩🇭🇺

Yesterday I was finally able to apply to be a party member and today I have gotten back to work. I am really anxious regarding the geography exam I have to take before university, I feel like every minute is filled with fear until May. At least I have gotten back to reading, I’ll try to catch up to the reading group on the long run. Health is fine, thank you for the cheers.

Have a nice Lenin themed week comrades.

This. 🙂 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Transcranial_magnetic_stimulation?wprov=sfla1

Exactly. It’s heartbreaking.

So, I am one TMS short of the final treatment that is going to happen tomorrow. They say it will have it’s effects in 2 weeks time. I feel better, but from complex causes, mainly a supportive family.

Today I attended my very first protest and met the president of our party. On one hand it was a blast, I had old guys congratulating me showing up for the event and a young comrade approaching me to engage in a conversation. Not to mention the several positive comments and smiles I got for the pins I was wearing. On the other hand, I have hyper-empathy and I hated every second of people walking by and making comments and so on. There was even a dude spitting once towards the speaker. How do you guys process shit like this? The feeling was and still kinda is unbearable.

Spent the weekend in the psych ward voluntarily, just to be safe. Now towards the end of the week, I’ll prolly get my first TMS and then I can be out once and for all. See you next Monday! Have a great week, I think I’ll go to the movies tomorrow, it’s not a fun place guys…

Reported

Sadly I have been sent to a mental hospital because of thinking about suicide. The depression and anxiety that’s caused by my autism has done it’s thing throughout the 20 some years and I was no longer willing to continue. I am reading about Lenin, that and my family helps me going, but as you would guess it’s terribly hard. If I get out of here, I’ll try to join the party, maybe that will help me with my depression. Tomorrow is my evaluation, deciding what they want to do with me, hoping they will see that it’s my autism causing the depression and they’d let me leave. Root for me guys, please.

Welcome! Enjoy your time here! :)