i wish i could be more openly masc-leaning but there is a Lot of transphobia in my home environment also have been thinking of a name + pronoun change (he/they) and while many of my friends are extremely supportive if not trans themselves its still scary ! im also super indecisive about the name LOL

how did you guys land on a name? ive tried baby name websites but nothing has really clicked so far

permission to lib out for the next day or so?

Been seeing reports that the left engine completely detached on the takeoff roll? Concerningly similar to American Airlines Flight 191 (for the non runway freaks, the MD-11 is basically a beefed up/modernized/improved DC-10)**

Looks like it was a passenger plane with Thai Airways (registration HS-TME) before UPS acquired/converted it

i appreciate it, comrade im definitely better than i was a few months ago but its still a long way to go, having issues with getting actual consistent care but hopefully everything will get resolved sooner rather than later lol. just trying to remember that it can only go up from here yk

He was less annoying when he was alive. Most of my family is highly conservative and they’ve been wailing about him nonstop when I can guarantee they did not watch a second of his “content” before he got got

why does the mental health care system suck so much. i feel like im not even being helped at this point don’t want to get into crazy specifics but shits been tough

God this just broke my heart

had a so-so week but i went outside a lot (prob walked ~10 miles total) which im counting as a plus because i almost never go outside lol. also coming out of a recent big psych hospitalization, so honestly doing anything but being stuck in the same hallway has been great

my plan for next week is to focus on self-care as much as i can because i have a huge school deadline on the 30th, still working on things so not totally drowning in my work is a priority.

i am a professional artist (and maybe this makes me a bit out of touch,) assuming that it’s for personal use and not for profit at all, i would rather have someone take my work into photoshop/gimp/krita/whatever and trace it near directly or make edits to it to fit their vision than have that person go spend money to further refine The Slop Machine. other artists may have differing opinions on this but since generative AI has gotten popular i just simply do not care anymore as long as my work isn’t being fed to train image models. hell, if you’re tracing someone else’s work using tools on paper, that’s still building muscle memory and linework skill and while not the ideal scenario it’s doing more for you than you might think. with generative AI you are paying to generate an image based off countless images that already existed from artists that were not paid for their work to be included in the model. is that…not capitalistic or not at the very least exploitative?

not a stupid suggestion at all and once i have the finances i will most likely be getting my hands on one. i ran into a super cool cane a few years back at a thrift store that was wood-carved, but it was way too tall for me and i’ve been wanting a similar one ever since haha. a lot of my shame around my cane usage just stems from self-invalidation and feeling like i’m “not disabled/in pain enough” to justify using a mobility aid, which is something i’ve been trying to address and work through but i still have a long way to go. i appreciate the kind words and advice!

there’s some nice parks around me but not within walking distance unfortunately! i drove to one today and it was nice, couldn’t tolerate the heat for too long though so i didn’t stay for as long as i wanted to. not super into podcasts, but if you have any suggestions on what to listen to on a walk i’d try some out!

haven’t been doing too hot for the past week or so. had a few sober days, won’t get into specifics, but i definitely am capable of better. i’ve been going to my IOP program consistently without missing days this whole month so that’s a win in my book

my plan for this week is to spend more time out of the house. i am unemployed and in between semesters which has kinda been an excuse to just… rot forever for the past 2 1/2 months. not sure what to do specifically (walk, go for a drive somewhere, etc) but regardless it’ll be a change.

i know that at least with my friends who are non muslim a lot of the time its in reference to this

leg pain has been pretty bad lately aggravated by the weather so i’m stuck using my cane more than i’ve had to in almost a year :') also having to deal with a lot of brain fog from my mental health medication and it makes me feel like i can’t type a coherent sentence so there’s that too. we push through i guess

its been a while since ive posted in one of these threads (and on hexbear in general) and… whew what a time it has been not just for me but with the Everything

my goal this week is to pick back up on self-care and stop immediately going back to bed and subsequently bedrotting every time im in the house… maybe do a little cleaning, etc. ive fallen off the wagon but am trying to give myself some grace and work back up to sobriety, i’m in therapy so i have a lot of help in that corner.

it was a few hours before they announced it otherwise i would have thought it was for the pope 1000%

i live in a very densely populated suburb and i don’t believe i’ve heard any in previous years either so i honestly think it was just a conservative 'Murica Hell Yeah thing. or for 420. or honestly could be both

from the general vibes/light conversations about events i’ve had with them, all the therapists ive had in the past generally skewed liberal at worst with social/political issues. definitely not on the hard left, but not “wahh-illegals-in-my-country” xenophobic fascist aligned either, so hearing something like this was a first for me. it shocked me that someone in that line of work could have such a lack of empathy for other human beings. i’m just glad i know about it now so i can see someone else and not waste my time.