I feel guilty about my obsession, not because it’s sexual, but because it sounds disturbing. Also, I feel like I must be a shallow person who is not interesting for more than five minutes. I certainly have a few other interests, but this secret one is special to me.

Is this an instant turn-off that I should hide as much as possible? I’ve seen jokes ridiculing guys for being breast-obsessed but I am too socially awkward to tell if it is more the obsession itself or the apparent disinterest in both personality and meaningful relationships that turns people off.

Update: I’m surprised at how many comments this thread received and how many users wanted to see my pinball table! I restricted it to private messages partly because I assumed that NSFW images were forbidden here, and partly because I used numerous other artists’ assets without permission (I had not intended to publish it anyway).

That said, a moderator told me that I could share it provided that I marked the topic NSFW and I credited the artists whose work I used. I modified a small part of it based on one of your suggestions. Click here to see it!