Okay, so It’s my first post. I don’t know if this count as NSFW but just in case I’ll put a spoiler.
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So… today i felt something that I had never felt before a big dysphoria crisis when my wife started to be a bit intimate with me.
I won’t go into details, but basically I never though that my bottom part would cause me this feeling. I ended up crying because of what I felt… I can’t really put words on it…
I never felt that before when I was still an egg. (Well, some things were less enjoyable but never this).
I don’t really know what to think about it, why did my body react this way. Even though I never though about any surgery about it.
Even yesterday, I thought like I don’t understand why some people would have dysphoria about their genitals. I though that we need to deconstruct gender and we can be feminine or masculine with any organs and this hits me like a slap I’m the face.
I feel foolish.
This is super relatable for a lot of trans women. Trust me you are not alone in this.
It is something complex and can hit you like an emotional equivalent of a truck. There’s no shame in letting your emotions go. You felt what you felt and that’s valid. You’re doing a great job in processing it by writing it down.
Let us know if you want to talk about it more