I don’t feel very good right now. I’m one year and some change on HRT. It’s been a wonderful experience so far and I love being a girl. I know that I’m trans, and I’m reminded by “why” every time I go home and I’m forced to boymode.
Unfortunately that’s little comfort to the complex feelings of starting to feel erectile dysfunction (ED). I just had sex with my trans girlfriend and she didn’t have much left. I can’t ignore this feeling I’m on that same path eventually.
I want some sort of function either male or female. Even though I still wish I was born with a vagina. It pains me to even think about going off HRT though. I love being a girl too much and I don’t think I could present fem without HRT. I still have most all of its function but it doesn’t stay up for as long.
It’s a completely irrational feeling that I hope will be solved eventually with SRS, but that’s probably 10 years away and I just learned how to be sexual 2 years ago.
I can’t speak to SRS because I’m slightly leaning away from it myself, but ultimately undecided.
That said, I can give a bit of insight into a similar experience with HRT. When I started HRT, I had quite a few issues with ED and I just thought that’s how it was supposed to be. Eventually, I started taking Tadalafil to help with the issue and that was an okay bandaid for a while (honestly, it wasn’t such a big deal, I just kept a little in my sleep over bag and in my bathroom medicine cabinet).
When I swapped doctors, we did a little meetup to talk about how things were going and I brought up the ED situation. My doctor recommended we try changing up the HRT prescription (a very slightly lower dose of Finasteride, a slightly higher dose of Estrogen, and starting Progesterone) and the ED issue basically went away completely.
If you haven’t yet, definitely check with the doctor about seeing if modifying your HRT dosages may help!
Edit: as an after thought, my bloodwork was showing I already had a relatively low testosterone level before HRT, so I was WAY overdoing the blockers (even below the range of CIS women) and similarly, I had an average to slightly below average estrogen levels (as compared to CIS women).