t gauge model trains are tiny as fuck and i love them. they’re 1:450 scale and have a track gauge of only 3mm. sadly they don’t have a lot of support so you’re very limited for choice of models unless you’re willing to kitbash. but it’s good for people like me who enjoy making the surrounding scenery
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Trying to articulate something that bugs me, but something I’ve noticed well meaning libs constantly bring up is “trans people being 1% of the population”. As if the big problem is that it’s mean republicans are picking on a tiny minority.
And I feel I need to address, that of course we know trans people are probably more than 1% of the populations, we know that in more trans inclusive (but definitely not perfect) cultures the percentage of binary trans people is around 3%, and that number is probably higher if you removed a lot more of the barriers, as well a non-binary people who the demographics are probably comparable to bisexuals, in that lots of non-binary people are being counted as cis, because they don’t have the understanding or safety to express their true gender.
Allso that that statement also suggests that I don’t know there’s like an acceptable cap on trans people, when we know it would be totally fine (and in fact super cool) to live in a society where we were the majority.
But the real thing that bugs me, is even if trans people were 1% of the population…1% percent of the population is common! In epidemiology a common condition is usually something that affects 1 in 10 to 100 people. If it was 1%, people being trans is on the borderline with uncommon, which is usually 1 to 100 to 1000 people.
For example Parkinson’s disease affects 1 in 300 Americans. Being trans is 3x more common than having Parkinson’s disease! Cuban-Americans are 7 in 1000 in the USA! It’s more common for an American to be trans than Cuban-American!
And I think about how many First Nation’s scholars have pointed out that by presenting a group of people as being decimated, diminished or ultimately dying out, it’s prepares people for that groups inevitable assimilation or exctinction. So no trans people ARE common, there’s fuckloads of us, there should be more and we’re not going away.
Even if the 1% is true thats 80 million ppl, or 3 million just in the US, a number thats a lot harder to claim is an insignificantly tiny group
3% of the population being transsexual seems like a lot, fuck
I don’t find it to be a high estimate, tho. Just look at how much residual transphobia there is in our culture, it’s a given that a large number of trans people in such a social climate, if not the majority, are still repping heavily.
No maybe not… it feels like a lot of people though. Even though I do logically agree a lot of people are maybe even subconsciously repping. If not for a happy accident I certainly wouldn’t have any clue I was trans.
The thing I think about is homosexuality/bisexuality (obviously not a 1:1 comparison), but if society is aggressively homophobic only 100% homosexual people will be homosexual. The heteroflexible, bisexual, and even homoflexible, will all end up in heterosexual passing relationships.
It’s like that I think with sex/gender. We know people have varying ranges of dysphoria and gender expression, in a more permissive society, a lot of people who can get by or partially tolerate being cis-passing might actually transition and be much happier.
In Samoa the population of fa’afafine (people presumed male at birth but live as women who have widespread social acceptance) is estimated at around 1-5%.
Some western studies suggest autistic people are 6 times more likely to be trans which is somewhere around 3-6% (but includes non binary people)
I think that at least 3% would be the number of binary trans people if society wasn’t a fuck and it was accepted and supported.
I got estrogen!!! 4mg injection weekly. Injections are way easier than I thought they’d be.
Congrats!
I think everyone on injections has that realization lol, not so scary.yippee
Congrats!Congrats <3 happy for you!
Lesgooooo
talking to a cis women
She asked me “you’re not one of those guys that transitioned because they think women lives are easier”, that was 5 years ago.
Also unscolicited wardrobe “advice” from cis women, it’s never “color doesn’t look good on your skin tone” or actual stuff, it’s just “this is out of fashion”, okay then have you considered that I am intentionally trying to look like this? Considered that i’m trying shit out?
Yet when i say “cis people can’t be trusted, except you can trust them to make an absolute ass of themselves every time they try to talk to a trans person”, cissies reliably get super fucking mad even on hexbear.
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She asked me “you’re not one of those guys that transitioned because they think women lives are easier”, that was 5 years ago.
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Realized that I haven’t posted in a while. Just want to say that I love y’all, and that I’m doing alright. Therapy has been good for my mental health, work is going well, and my relationship with my fiance is going strong.
start dating people irl now that I live in a big city immediate first gf is a week long affair and immediately becomes a crazy ex after breaking up with me
Finally becoming the disaster lesbian I was always meant to be
Going to take my recent trans thoughts to my very queer therapist tomorrow morning. Wish me luck
luck
My tits are sore and itchy!
Let’s fucking growwwww!! 
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Birthday was yesterday, sucked to have to boymode with everyone wishing me happy birthday, but at least I used that as an excuse to ask people around me to look into the reels I’m sending them on Instagram, I’m doing everything I can to share how much Flávio Bolsonaro is a piece of shit that will destroy our country.
On a good note I have progressed a lot with my friend that wants to understand politics, he even read Albert Einstein’s Why socialism?. His work schedule is kinda weird so he only gets to reply to my messages ~1 AM, so for now I asked him what he liked about it, if anything he wanted to talk about, or any questions he has before we proceed. Previously we used One Piece to start this, we talked a bunch about Enies Lobby, and how Robin is a victim of genocide and how that relates to real life like Israel and the Palestinian genocide.
Happy (belated) birthday! I’m sorry to hear you had to boymode, but
did you make the most of it it sounds like. I hope that it’s the last birthday you have to pretend to be someone elseThanks comrade
Any time, friend of mine
very good thank you
hi ppl :) dressed fem at home again today. Did makeup, finally did some eyeliner that wasn’t trash… I barely left the house just because I was enjoying being and taking care of myself, drinking coffee, reading and doing my nails, taking selfies, dressing up a bit.
Anyway I had this moment where I was looking in the mirror at myself and smiling, I felt I liked how that looked, which made me smile more and the feeling kind of fed back on itself as my expression changed, and I started to feel overwhelmed by it.
It started to bring me to tears, being able to see myself as genuinely womanly and cute and realizing the happiness that brought made me feel…other things. Happy things but also grief that this part of myself that feels like it fits has been suppressed for so long, is still suppressed much of the time.
Mixed bag of feels for sure but overall a nice day.
Happy things but also grief that this part of myself that feels like it fits has been suppressed for so long, is still suppressed much of the time.
It can be so difficult not to dwell on these thoughts, I feel you. I’ve never conceptualized them as grief but I think you’re exactly right, thanks for that framing.
But also I’m happy for you that you got to be yourself some more and be happy about it!
thx scrungus :3
Never been real good at identifying emotions ( only real good at making them go away! lol ) but I’ve been trying to improve in that department a bit( therapy ).
I couldn’t understand the feeling in the moment, it just took me by surprise–not really dwelling, just came outta nowhere through the happy feelings. Like i was looking in the mirror saying “what the fuck” as the tears started to well up. But yeah, after that fact I think grief is what fits what I felt the best–like it’s about the lost time, the pain of being happy for a thing that was seen as something to be ashamed of, the sense of being forced to squander this piece of yourself that makes you happy without even knowing you were doing so. A really interesting blend of feels, that.
But yes. I plan to dress up a little bit and go outside today–I have an appointment …we’ll see how that goes.
Never been real good at identifying emotions ( only real good at making them go away! lol ) but I’ve been trying to improve in that department a bit( therapy ).
God, me too (and sorry if I’m projecting my thoughts into what you say too much). I’m glad I can relate so much to people who think like me and are trying to improve themselves - makes it possible for me to
my way through some of my own stuff haha. It is always so helpful to hear from you (and everyone else too), I really do appreciate the thoughtful replies. I wish I could return the favor in kind more often, but in lieu of that I can stick to just being excited for you when you’re excited Hell yeah, enjoy the day and I hope your appointment goes well!
You reply a lot, I’m always happy when you do!
And no, I don’t feel projected upon. Relation is entirely why I started posting here in this journal-y way–just reading about what others are going through and (sometimes) feeling some of those things myself…makes it easier. Even if I’m not going through what others are going through, I may have had a similar time at some point in my life. Just sending some encouragement or trying to help if I can feels like the right thing to do.
Even if I don’t know what to say, the mere act of reading others’ stories here, a lot of the time I’ll drop an upvote just to just let ppl know they’ve been seen in some way, you know?
You reply a lot, I’m always happy when you do!
Aww thanks! I’m always anxious (in general) about how I communicate via text so that’s good to hear
Even if I don’t know what to say, the mere act of reading others’ stories here, a lot of the time I’ll drop an upvote just to just let ppl know they’ve been seen in some way, you know?
Absolutely, agreed! I just feel kind of guilty sometimes when others put so much thought and care into their side of a conversation and all I can think to say is “same!” or whatever. Even just replying with a relevant emoji can make me feel this way.
I know it’s a me issue, but it’s tough to out-think my anxiety most of the time. I need to learn how to express myself better
FWIW I think you’re doing just fine
tho I totally get the ‘uhh dunno if i should even reply cause it feels like it could be seen as perfunctory’. I find it hard to say things sometimes and question the value of doing so, I am also a human being with anxieties.
Guess the only thing I have to add is that when it comes to keeping online spaces lively, it’s probably better to say things even if it feels kinda silly, where would we be if nobody did?
…OH BTW my appointment went alright. I have another one in a little under a couple weeks. gotta go get some blood work done in the meantime.
- As always, thanks again for the reassuring words!
Guess the only thing I have to add is that when it comes to keeping online spaces lively, it’s probably better to say things even if it feels kinda silly, where would we be if nobody did?
Good point! I think I need to agonize less about how I communicate in general, and this is really helpful. Irl in situations where I don’t know what to say it can be way easier because I can communicate nonverbally, so I think I’m just missing that online.
Big congrats on the appointment! That’s awesome to hear
I love this for you so much, I know exactly what you’re talking about and it brings me back to some wonderful and intense moments.
Happy things but also grief that this part of myself that feels like it fits has been suppressed for so long, is still suppressed much of the time.
I know this extremely well too, imo it’s important to let ourselves grieve if we have grief. Idk if it’ll ever leave, but it’s gotten better with time. I let myself cry, inlet myself be sad, and in the process I let myself work through it. It’s different for everyone I’d assume, but that’s what’s working for me. But it’s also important to remember that it’s gonna be okay, that you’re doing it now and now is better than tomorrow even if you do intensely wish you had started yesterday. There are so many more wonderful experiences to have just like this one.
thank you Switchy <3
I too feel it’s important to let the feels flow–not that I am good at that–I can remember in previous times going through breakups and crying a lot and feeling so wrecked but like I needed to do it and I enjoyed it, felt better doing so. I would listen to tons of sad music and bawl my eyes out. It feels good to cry…I just never really know when it’s gonna happen, it unlocks on its own in response to things, ya know?
… how did u do eyeliner? i’m still awful
TBH, it was probably still just OK in the eyes of those who know what they’re doing but it looked nice (and subtle enough) to me.
I tried using a lighter colour, trying a very skinny brown liquid eyebrow brush that i had lying around, did a simple line over the top of the eye from the tear duct, thickening toward the edge with a lil wing. had to go over things a lot, but it was convenient using something with a very thin tip.
Other than that it was just looking at tutorials a bit, some for older women which was interesting and informative about how parts of the face can change. Another thing I gleaned from there was the dot and connect method, which means you dot the eyeliner on and connect those dots afterward, which did help give a more consistent line and also just got me to slow down and be methodical about things.
