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  • gaystyleJoker [she/her]@hexbear.netMEnglish
    4·
    1 month ago

    HELLO THIS IS THE MEGA SIGN UP POST/LIST POST

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  • Dispossessed [none/use name]@hexbear.netEnglish
    16·
    1 month ago

    I ordered some “aspirational dresses” thinking in a few years of hormones I’d look good in them and wear them out. Well, chat, I’m delighted to say they fit, i looked gorgeous and I went out in one last night and felt like a queen.

    Some old boomer passers-by looked at me and my girlfriend like they wanted to kill us but I’m getting pretty used to that by now. And they were outweighed by all the smiles of queer recognition. I guess I wear beautiful dresses now.

  • transbyanism [they/them, comrade/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
    15·
    2 months ago

    hello fellows transes new person here:3 yay, i wrote an intro.post you can see on my profile if you wanna see dunno if its anything worth reading

    hope everyones having a nice day, mine isnt and everything overwhelming lol

      • transbyanism [they/them, comrade/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
        7·
        2 months ago

        :3 hii!

        Yep eink is so absurdly expensive, you can either try to go for a second hand Kobo/Kindle (found some for 40-50$), or try to buy the Xteink X4, it’s about 70$ with shipping for me. Kobo has the best out of the box experience imo, also maybe check out Pocketbook, I also have used them, Kobos are better but way more expensive while Pocketbook is cheaper, I think the Xteink is as cheap as you get without going for used devices though

        • sodium_nitride [she/her, any]@hexbear.netEnglish
          6·
          2 months ago

          Yeah I tried kobo once. Gave it away to my little brother as a birthday gift.

          But like that’s the thing. 50 bucks ain’t that much. But my phone with much more functionality cost 80 bucks. It’s impossible for me to justify the expense to myself.

  • TerminalEncounter [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    15·
    1 month ago

    Gotta say, Im still really digging having a vagina! Its great every day. I still grin like an idiot when I see it and look at it.

    I am glad that FINALLY I’m on the part of the recovery schedule where dilating is once a day and slowly I can decrease that (or just have someone else to dilate for me so to speak lol).

  • transbyanism [they/them, comrade/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
    14·
    1 month ago
    sex, rant, TMI

    Out of the blue so apologies I suppose, I’m a bit of a prude regarding this but whatever… I just suck at fucking. I have a cis long term girlfriend and well she has her own sex issues like a lot of them but I also am just plainly bad. I cant finger her cause it hurts her, only very rarely it feels pleasurable. It took like 3 years of actively trying to have sex before I managed to make her cum using my fingers last month (it was the first time she didnt get off herself). I am not on HRT cause I live in fuckass reactionary hellhole that would murder me for it and exclude me legally and I dont mind PIV, so we have done it a few times, and each time it felt good for her but overwhelming and in the end painful to the point she didnt want to do penetrative whatsoever anymore so we havent. Because of other outside circumstances we barely have been having sex at all and it just sucks feels like any progress we did is just undoing/gone. It just seems so easy for everyone else while for me it’s always been shit. I’m always paranoid of hurting her and feel like a bad person. And that I should do better. I dont have anyone to talk to about this, other than her cause we are very good at communication, that’s not an issue. She also has chronic pain and is potentially disabled so that might factor in, though most of this was before the onset of the worse stuff. Idk it’s just so bad to the point it’s eating at me cause I should be able to fuck cause we both enjoy it but then somehow we/I fuck up and it hurts or etc. I cant give head cause well at one point shes oversensitive and it begins hurting her, penetration hurts her too much, or I hurt her legs if I keep them up. It’s so tiresome we stopped actively having sex and are regressing I think, cause we both have trauma before we met eachother. We both also have problems expressing desire, her even moreso than me; so even if she wants me physically she never says it and I want her to say it but she has a lot of religious trauma and etc. Sorry this was too big of a rant, just had to get this off my chest :/ I hate feeling so incompetent. I think we both need couples sex therapy and proper resources for prep but we’re too poor to go to therapy anyways

  • soyaEnjoyer [they/them, she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    14·
    2 months ago

    a very cool feature of capitalism is that you can discontinue a product and simultaneously introduce a new product with a lightly tweaked recipe, package it in a bottle of half the volume, slap “professional” on the label, and charge twice as much for the privilege as an introductory offer before jacking up the price further. no other economic system could innovate like this.

    (yes i am mad that my cheap and good conditioner is no longer cheap)